Wednesday, January 6, 2010

I'm so F stressed up ... Yesterday, I was so FREAKING excited to get the result.
So I waited, till midnight to check on it's result. I stil go the coverage to on the lappy at 12 midnight.
So I chat with Wani, Myai on how to check the approval on the course.
So they said 'check the booklet'. WTF !? Well, I replied back 'I dunno how bcos that time the people ITE called me reasons of they had OFFERED me a course in ITE tampines'. I wonder it's kinda special thought.
Well, today morning Mum wake me up at 10 sharp, but I continued sleeping for 15 mins =.=
I quickly plug the adapter of my lappy to check once again on the result.
So it's the remain the same, how I saw during mid-night. o.0
So I was still unsure, so to make it 100% sure ... I asked my mum to called the ITE HQ @ Dover
to check on the result it personally.
So it's really confrim that I didn't actually get the course, that imddiate reactions stirkes.

I was starting to throw anger to my Mum over the phone and throwing my 2 handphones
hard reaction on the bed, so the hp kiss and bumbed on each other. Fork !
My head hurts badly, felt the house was turing 1000 km/hr.
Moment later, suddenly my eyes were starting to black out .. I see the house fell so dark
as if gonna rain heavily. OMG ! Means that I gonna faint. Lucky, there's someone at home
or else no one notice till Mum's get back from back arnd 6pm.
That time I was so hopeless. My 'step- dad' said ' don't be stress and relax, it's not ur fault', it's thier fault ( the school/teachers ).
I told him, that Mum's always presurise me with WORDS that you just can't imagine.
Darn it ! So shuud up. I don't to expand it. My heart and head pain thinking it back. Shoo !
Today, I really had no appetiate to eat even thought the food no matter how nice or my favourite
I could hardly eat it up finish and felt like want to threw up.
Maybe these goes for everyone, I presume. When u are stress, maybe you could hardly eat
or drink anything ... and an auto.drift off the mind. Same here !
Now I have to sit down quietly and do a hard prayer on the course and the school that I want to enter. Insya'allah there's a vancant seat just specially for me. Amin !